descendend | 「a little birdie told me something special, something secret」

That the prime dimension's Milla was created by the real Maxwell to be bait for Exodus, and only became Maxwell after she died and was pulled out of the reincarnation cycle by the Four.

[ She slumps a little. This still hurts to think about. She was played for a fool the entire time--gotta be explaining why she doesn't claim her Lord of Spirits title as much anymore though, actual Lord of Spirits residing in Empatheias aside. ]

It's likely that I was the same way, except my big sister was sent along with me to make sure that our mission was carried out. When we were finished, I dismissed the Four--or I thought I did. It's more likely that the real Maxwell called them back to the spirit realm. The person my big sister must've been trying to talk to at the Hallowmont must've been him too. [ Milla squeezes her arms, closing her eyes. She'd hate to see him pity her, even for a second. ] I've been living a lie for the past twenty-one years of my life, and I got to hear it from Miss Maxwell herself--along with the story of the woman her and I were named after, Milla Kresnik.

I'm sorry.

[Even if she doesn't see his pity, he's doing pretty well of voicing it. He knew about the story of Milla Kresnik, but was that really a surprise, given his own last name? He even met Maxwell himself, even if it was just a fossil.

He's not even sure what to say, other than that. What can he say, other than sorry? There's not much else to say when someone's life ended up being a lie.

But he can think on it, for a bit, at the very least.]

Don't pity me. [ Reflexive.

But she nods. There really isn't anything else to say. ] It's... fine. That was a while ago.

Mm.

[Yeah. This is pretty awkward. He has no clue what to even say to all of this.]

You still had control of them, even if for a brief time. That's more than most can say.

[ There isn't anything he can say! So they should just... move along........... ]

I guess so. I doubt they'd do anything I asked now though, "Milla Maxwell" or not. [ They're the proper Maxwell's after all. Hm... ] ...er... thanks. For making dinner and all. And hearing me out, I guess. Even if this whole thing was a waste of your time.

[ Because talking about your feelings is a waste of time! Yeah... yeah.... ]

You're welcome, but I don't think it was a waste of time.

[Especially since, knowing Milla, this is probably the only time she's been able to properly vent about this.]

I seriously don't see how you can say anything you do with a straight face.

[ Ugh. That kind of reassurance is nice though, and she barely gets her hand up in time to cover a smile trying to peek out. Please don't say anything, she's not smiling because of him. ]

[Sure, sure.]

I have plenty of practice.

That stupid brother of yours. [ She remembers this. She does. ] Are you sure you weren't just born shameless?

It's possible, but I somehow doubt it.

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[ She was born controlling the Four Great Spirits and he doubts being able to be born shameless??? Please... ]

What's so good about being able to be so... [ What's the word. Hold on, she'll think of it. ] ...obnoxiously straightforward?

It helps in situations like this, right?

Really. [ Forgive her if she doesn't quite believe him. ] How often do you get "situations like this"?

Not often, but it's not necessarily an uncommon situation either.

[ Guess not, with the group he's picked to hang with.

...which includes her. That means more to her than she is willing to admit. ]

Well, whatever. [ Time for her to turn the tables though. ] What do you think of her? [ She pauses.

And crosses her arms. ] You got to ask me, so I'm just returning the favor.

She's not you.

[That's pretty much what he thinks about it.]

I don't mind her, but it's definitely weird to have her around.

...That's it? [ She's kind of.

Hm. Disappointed? He spent time with the woman; he's gotta have some sort of opinion on her. The way he says it makes her feel like he'd prefer her company to Milla Maxwell's, which is flattering and very ??!! at the same time--she's going to hmph. ] It can't be that weird. She's meant to be there.

[ And so was she, the way she was. Silver gave her that thought a while ago. It's still hard to swallow, because it doesn't feel like something she deserves to have a right to. Even if she does. Sanae keeps telling her she has a right to any happiness--this is so much. ]

An--anyway, really? Weird? That's such a childish way of putting it.

It's not childish.

[Hey... !]

You were there first, for me. So naturally it would be weird.

[ It's totally childish!!! ]

Weird, though. [ It's okay, Ludger, if it's any consolation nothing you could've said would have been right. This is probably the best you're getting. ] Fine, fine. Just... Just don't say it like that, all right? It sounds like you'd rather have me around than her.

[ okay that may be a weird way to put it but she doesn't know how else to put it. ]

Kind of?

[It's confusing.]

You're my friend. Milla is too, but it's still a strange situation. That's all.

[ Friend...

She'd probably count him as something like a friend. He's one of the closest things she has to one from back ho--from that world, barring their female company. ]

Friends? [ There's a slight edge of disbelief to it. Friends. ] We're friends?

[ (She hadn't really been awesome to him before, and her attitude certainly hadn't lessened here, even if she was happy to see him and--OTHER VARIOUS REASONS.) ]

[... That was a slip. Not that he didn't think of her as a friend, just that he didn't deserve it.]

Well... yeah. If you want to be, anyway.

Why would I wanna be? [ She needs to shut up. She knows it. The wallpaper curls because of the turn the conversation's taken, and she knows it's her fault. It usually is. ]

... I don't know.

[He really doesn't. I mean, he destroyed her world, after all.]

Sorry.

I never said I-- [ She bites back on it. She shouldn't want to be friends or be happy that he'd want to call them friends. She shouldn't really consider him one. You don't hate him? drifts in her mind--

dammit, Silver. ] There's nothing to apologize for. Just forget it.

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